new things

My first day on my new diet went really great especially that i had a 3 day binge session before yesterday.
I do think i drank a bit to much juice and tea with honey so today i am going to focus on drinking lots of water.
Also great thing is that i went to a big supermarket yesterday and i found tofu. I know for most of you it is not a big thing but in the country i live in, we dont use tofu at all. And it is really hard to find a place where to get it.
so all tofu fan's, give me some ideas what to do with it. :)
i am also going to the gym later, probably some elliptical and then an hour long aerobics class.
at the moment i am watching "Chelsea settles"  for MTV.

Oh and to the comment: i have time to go to the gym because i dont have a job at the moment, but i am looking for one.

Sometimes i just want to pack my bag and , move to Australia or something. i am so fed up of my country. It is so small and i just want to live in a big city where no one knows me. I lived in the south of Europe for 3 months and i loved it. I loved to live in a big city, were no one knew who i am. I loved walking in the city center and feeling like i was alive.
Here it is just so depressing.
Yesterday i was looking outside and thought wohooo  i can go running outside soon and then in the evening it started snowing. so frustrating. i need to move someplace warmer. i like winter but only a month at a time.

xoxo

back "home"

I moved from south of europe back to my home in the north europe.
I am still fat as ever.
last night i cried because i hate my body so much. today my new diet starts. I work out 1-2hors a day every day and eat only fruit and vegetables.
my weight this morning was 62.7kg/138ibs.
My goal for this week is to lose 2.7kg/6ibs.
Today at gym i had yoga and then swam for half an hour.

I am still doing great. but well it is just the 4th day so jeah.
i went running today again, but i managed to eat a bit too much.
i am thinking about liquid fasting at the weekend. Anyone wants to join me?
It would be great to have some support.

At the moment i just want to kill my flatmate. he put the regular dish washer liquid into the dishwasher and the hole kitchen floor was covered with bubbling liquid. arggghh is it so hard to make sure that you put the right dish washing liquid into the machine. that guy just irritates me to hell. (lets call him A from now on, i think i will be writing about him a lot, because he is an idiot).

I played some Need for speed on Play Station 2 today. mind you i haven plaid PS for like 7 years. i really dont play PS or X-box or any computer games. but this was actually fun. well and the boy i was playing it had fun making fun of my driving :P
Ok i am now going to catch up on your blogs and make some tea.

Stay strong

day 2

i am going strong. i had a very good day.
I looked pretty actually. my hair was all nice and i did a great make-up and chose my clothes wisly. the only thing... if i was 5kg less, it would have been perfect.
anyways i cooked dinner and i did not "taste test" once. that is a really big accomplishment.
i ate about 500kcal and did pilates.
Short post, i am tired.

Hope you are all going strong.

Happy New Year!

The first day of the New year and i am doing great.
I ran 15km today. the longest run in my life.
I have only drank water today.
I am happy today and i am out of the big black hole i was in december.
Anyways i am doing the skinny girl diet as of today.

i know i was suposed to start Friday but really i was just one messed up mess then.
At the moment i am riding on the New Year motivation. lets hope it lasts a while.
I hid my scale and i will not be weighing myself before the end of January.

Hope you all had a great new years celebrations and that today you are happier than yesterday.