Monday, November 19, 2012


Still no computer and at the moment I am useing my complicated-almost-ex-boyfriends laptop.
The weekend did not go well. As usual I do good in weekdays and the at the weekend I go fucking nuts.
I stayed over at Mats(complicated almost ex) appartment so i could not weigh myself but i will tomorrow morning and also try to post my stats then.

I am 166cm or 5'5'' 
Weigh about 59kg 
My goal weight is 53kg and bmi of 19.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Loosing weight

Two weeks ago i was 61kg(just after a binge).
On Monday i was 59.9kg.
Today i am 58.7kg.
My goal is to be 53kg before the end of the year.

University is so much work and i am so lazy...
It is only my firs semester/term.
But i need to do this.
I need to get my degree.

Monday, November 12, 2012

Computer crashed

My computer crashed two weeks ago and I had very little Interenet access. At the moment I am writing this from my boyfriends computer.
I have no idea how long it will take to fix my laptop but I hope not very long or I will go crazy soon.
The weekend i spent with my mother  her place is a huge trigger to me and I binged pretty bad there. I love my mother but something there just makes me eat all the food in sight. So frustrating. I would like to spend more time at my mum's place but I really dont want to get fat.
I also did one positive thing yesterday, I went running and i loved it. I dont know why I stopped running in September, probably because of university work. Maybe if i had continued running I would not have gained all that weight back. Next time i will be smarter.
I am fasting today and it is going great so far.
I have an exam on Thursday and I should study for it but i am too lazy and I have no motivation.
It seems the only thing i care about is my weight and the amount of food i am eating.
But this really has to change because i want to pass all my classes.

I will update my progress in a few days.

Sunday, November 4, 2012


It was hell.
I binged, and now i hate myself, oh the fun.