liquids and studying

Yesterday was okey.
It is really hard for me not to binge. I have a severe binge disorder.
I was very productive yesterday evening, and finished several university assignment i had to do. So i am really pleased about that.
I was supposed to go out with my friend in the evening but i had no motivation or mood to go so i stayed home and watched TV and studied.
Today i am liquid fasting and studying some more.
I should also start backing because i am moving to a dorm next week.
And in the evening i am going to a friends place to drink vine(yes i know how bad alcohol is).
I am liquid fasting because i want my stomach to shring so i get full faster.
I might try a water fast but i am not sure i am up to it.
I should also weigh myself but the high number would probably lead to a binge so i am staying away from a scale for a week or so.